20 years ago I spent the night at a friends house, we’ll just call him Glenn. I was about 14 or 15. Anyways we were up at like 1 in the morning looking at p*** sites. I asked him about young girls, presumably the ages we were at the time if he knew anything about it. He must have misinterpreted what I said because he showed me websites of those and then he showed me another website with images waaaaaay younger, and they were depicted in s***** acts. At this time, I was having alot of anger and family issues at home and I decided stupidly that if I took some of these photos, I would be “getting even” with people I was upset with at that time in my life by doing something that bad. So I took a bunch of different pictures onto a diskette. I eventually came to my senses and realized how fucked up it was and destroyed everything. I have absolutely zero attraction or interest in that stuff and to this day have never even thought of doing something like that. The only problem is that the guilt still eats away at me 20 years later. I’m afraid to tell people about it for obvious reasons. I want to live a normal happy life and be open to people but this haunts me. What to do?
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You were a child. Once you realized the weight of your decision, you attempted to rectify your actions. Unless you are going to hunt the scumbags down that put these now adults on the internet at such a tender age, I think you should try to forgive yourself. We all make mistakes.
Forget it.
You didn’t do anything serious.
If you had raped a child, now that’d be something completely different and terrible.
After 20 years you’ve suffered long enough. There was no harm done.
Teenagers are stupid as fuck, very literally. They do dumb fucking shit because their brains don’t actually work yet, in a pretty real sense you aren’t even the same person.