As a man, I don’t trust women.
I will be turning 18 in a couple of months. I feel like I can’t trust women for fear of them hurting me, or even ruining my life. I hear countless stories of women falsely accusing men of r*** for attention, yet if I were to say I was raped by a girl, I would get laughed at.
I was also really into MGTOW and was even an incel when I was 14. I secretly hated women and thought they were all these evil, narcissistic b****** who didn’t give a single f*** about men (other than to have s** with them and fulfill their needs). They only want money and to ride the “c*** carousel” as they say. After freshman year I was sort of on and of about it. Sometimes I liked girls, sometimes I went back to that MGTOW/Incel mindset.
Thing is, I’ve never had an actual girlfriend until senior year. However believe me when I say it wasn’t as good as I thought it would be. I dated within a little group of mostly female friends. There was one I was into, but she always said she wasn’t sure. Which basically meant no. Then I met her friend, who she and some of her other friends said she liked me. And then we both actually dated and became bf/gf, it wasn’t perfect but it made me happier. It was a pretty happy two weeks but she broke up with me right before homecoming. I still went, but it kind of hurt inside to see she already had another boyfriend. I thought she was probably cheating on me. Who knows.
But I got to dance with the one girl who said she wasn’t sure, it was nice and I got feelings for her again. But again, she wasn’t sure.
Fast forward to a few days before Halloween. I meet my male friend’s girlfriend. Whom is planning to break up with him and likes me instead. And we hugged, held hands and kissed. Long story short, she didn’t actually love me and just used me to hurt my friend. After that I cut her out and pretty much made it clear I don’t wanna talk to her again. My friend didn’t seemed to mind, but I felt like a major p************ for helping her cheat, basically.
The thing about dating within this group. Was that I still feel to this day they were all just manipulating me. They didn’t like me, they never did.
The reason why I had that MGTOW/Incel mindset (which I finally realize after 3-ish years of having it, still do) was because I was afraid of getting hurt or manipulated, and it happened. I often think that they had this little sisterhood. Kinda like how Nazis saw the Jews. Where they all united against a common enemy.
Like a girl and her female-but-platonic friends vs that “creepy” guy at the bar who is probably only seen as creepy cause he’s not a 10/10 chad thundercock. Or picture women in pink Nazi uniforms marching down the street doing the “Sieg Heil!” salute and waving the a pink Nazi flag. Shouting things like “Hashtag kill all men!” with a megaphone. With “Horst Wessel Lied” (Nazi Germany anthem) playing in the background.
I know it’s wrong to generalize a HUGE chunk of the population into these hateful misandrists, when you haven’t even met half of them. However, I hope anyone reading this. Especially women, understand where I’m coming from. I would even love to talk to girls (and guys I guess) and I would love to see how wrong I truly am.
I would love to get into a relationship with a good girl who won’t hurt me, I would love to get laid, get that companionship people get with their SOs. I don’t hate all women anymore, but I still have major trust issues with dating them. Trust issues that may keep me from getting that love and s** I secretly crave for the rest of my life.