Ive been a really shitty person from around 2001 until end of 2017 - and Im slowly trying to not be as shitty 2001 - I kinda had unwanted sex with a

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Ive been a really s***** person from around 2001 until end of 2017 – and Im slowly trying to not be as s*****

2001 – I kinda had unwanted s** with a freshman girl my senior year of college – no condom and she wasn’t on birth control- it wasnt technically “d********” because I took her to breakfast the next morning and she wanted to keep seeing me – but I felt bad. I also started secretly smoking cigarettes again, after my GF broke up with me – was smoking just like I had been doing since 1996 in high school. Started routine of drinking every Thursday-Sunday

2002 – I cheated on a major exam to graduate – and I messed around with a different freshman girl. Really wrecked her heart and feelings. I continued my obsession with secret smoking. I also started trying to get teenage girls to start smoking with me. Messed up thing to do so know.

2003 – I messed around and had unprotected with an underaged teenage girl when I was her teacher. Took her virginity. then lied about it and really badly messed with her heart – I also flunked out of a grad program. Also My secret smoking fetish got worse. I got a young teenage girl I taught addicted to cigarettes. She was only 14. I ran into her a year ago and she’s still smoking heavily and too addicted to quit. I know That’s my fault.

2004 – I messed around with another underaged teenage girl while I was her teacher. Secret smoking fetish continued. Got another freshman girl addicted to cigarettes for life.

2005 – I got a teenage girl pregnant by accident and made her have an abortion against her will – fuc*** devastating – lied about it. nobody knows.
Then I cheated on my girlfriend. Big Time. My chain smoking reached epidemic proportions

2006 – I secretly cheated on my then live in GF with another g****** a work trip – but we got blackout drunk and we passed out in her room – no condoms and no birth control – we dont know if we ever went all the way or not – just that we both wanted to and were embarrassed. She was also down with my secret smoking fetish. She had tried to quit smoking, but I got her back smoking as heavily as ever. She’s still addicted and can’t quit even though it’s causing her serious health problems now

2007 – I failed a major certification exam and fuc*** my career up forever I also got real fat and was still secretly smoking cigarettes and hiding it from my GF

2008 – I started serious alcohol abuse and still secretly smoking cigarettes and hiding it from my GF

2009 – I hooked up with an old ex girlfriend even after I got married. My Alcoholism got worse so did my closet smoking

2010 – I played around with an underaged teenage girl I was supposed to be mentoring and yeah, still secret smoking and drinking heavily

2011 – more drunkenness. DWI. totaled car number 1. Still secret smoking all the time, everyday, hiding it from my wife. Fooled around with an underaged teenage girl I was tutoring. She had an emotional breakdown crying afterwards. She became depressed and suicidal

2012 – nearly went bankrupt and almost lost job. more alcoholism. More secret chainsmoking and secretly trying to hook up with the underage girl from the year before

2013 – worse alcoholism. DWI. totaled car number 2 driving drunk. hospitalized with alcohol posioning. trying to hook up with underage girls again. Still secretly smoking and hiding it. Buying cigarettes for teenage girls and trying to get them addicted

2014 – only slightly less alcoholic. Bought a lot of cigarettes for underaged teens

2015 – started secretly sexting an old ex gf from college. still raging alcoholic. Had a drunk dad scare when watching baby alone. Tried to quit secretly smoking cigarettes everyday for the first time in 19+ years but it made my alcohol addiction and s***** addictions much much worse

2016 – secretly met up with ex gf – were both married. Met up with another random girl in a parking lot. No condoms. Got trashed drunk on work trip and woke up in strangers hotel room. Again no condoms

2017 – multiple blackouts from alcoholism. Hooked up with former coworker on work trip then blacked out. No condoms. She has baby fever and I know she’s not on birth control. Risky and stupid. Woke up in some woman’s hotel room. Someone I met at a bar maybe? Later I ditched a family wedding and secretly hooked up with ex gf again and hid it from wife. Later after trying to get sober I got trashed day after thanksgiving when everyone was out of town and I lost my wedding ring at a bar. Secretly replaced it.

2018 – not done yet. No clue why my wife hasn’t divorce me

What the hell is wrong with me?

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