Recently I was on a night out with my girlfriend and her friends. We had a good time but at the end of the night a guy approached the girls in our group and tried to pull them and when they refused, he attacked them by kicking them then ran off before I had the chance to step in. We reported the incident to the police and then left. At this point I was pretty drunk and when I’m drunk the emotions I feel are so much stronger than when I’m sober. I was incandescently angry and after the group went our separate ways I went on a massive racist rant to myself (the guy who attacked the girls was Muslim). It was so out of character from me as I’m a liberal guy who honestly doesn’t have a racist bone in his body (I know you hear that line all the time from genuine racists but it’s true), my heightened anger fuelled by the drink meant that I couldn’t help myself. What I said wasn’t directed at anyone physically and the only person who heard me was my girlfriend (who has since forgiven me) as I was ranting to myself but ever since I remembered what I’d said when I woke up the next morning I’ve felt nothing but guilt and shame at what I said. I would never think, let alone say, what I said normally and I feel sick to my stomach knowing the b******* that came out of my mouth. What I said goes against everything I am and I feel so guilty even though the only person affected by my rant is myself. I’ve tried to put it to the back of my mind and forget about it but I can’t stop feeling guilty and ashamed of myself.