I'm really ashamed of myself for who I am in general. I'm a bisexual guy. I know.. it's "disgusting" and "immoral" in society's eyes. I wish I were

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I’m really ashamed of myself for who I am in general. I’m a bisexual guy. I know.. it’s “disgusting” and “immoral” in society’s eyes. I wish I were straight, I wish that on myself all the time. I hate myself each and every day knowing I’m attracted to both genders and that I simply can’t be myself due to the environment I’m in.

I wish I could move out and live somewhere safe but the downside is I got no car, no job and can’t find a place/someone to turn to. Overall, I’m on disability due to autism. I don’t know if moving out would affect my disability benefits.

I don’t think I should ever come out at all because of how homophobic my family really are. They all say a bunch of mean things and react in disgust whenever anything related to the lgbt is being brought into the conversation/or on TV.

My parents would be really pissed off and start sending me to church every Sunday if they ever find out about my s********. I don’t believe in their religion.

I may as well keep this as my deepest darkest secret since it’ll never be worth my time and breath to open up how I really feel.

It’s not all that easy to accept myself for who I am, I wish it were.

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Bitchez call me assholee smurf
Cuz the way I wipe my asss like it’s astro turf

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