2-3 years ago I posted in this site (if I recall correctly) how I didn’t like being gay on the pain section. How straight guys don’t want to be my friends and how women want me to go shopping with them.
On the comments a man from the UK willed to help me via an email I left on the comment section, and he then told me that I was too young to suffer that way and that I needed to find I place I was confortable at. He told me as an example that he liked to go to raves.
The problem is that I wasn’t very stable back then, and I was feeling bad because I thought I was bothering him. And I did one of the decisions I’ll forever regret: I stopped sending messages to him.
I’m not sure if he’s still around these sites, but here’s a messsage for him just in case he sees this:
Thank you very much for the help and support you offered to me. And I’m sorry I stopped replying you. I’m better now because I accept myself for what I am. But I still find it hard making friends. I just felt like I was bothering you, you had your life and I tought you didn’t have to put up with my problems because you maybe had your own problems as well. So if you’re still wondering why I didn’t reply to you, that’s the reason (apart from I’m not a considerate person and that I can’t appreciate any help I receive), you did nothing wrong. It was just me, and I will always be the problem.
