I caught feelings for a girl I knew was unavailable emotionally. We met on Tinder. We had been messaging back and forth for about two weeks before we finally met up. Our first date was amazing! The night ended with having s**. She was nice, it wasn’t awkward at all.
But I found out that she had just ended an 8 year relationship with her ex fiancee. We would text back and forth everyday. But we only saw each other once a month. I’m possitive she must’ve been seeing other guys on the side, even though she said she was only seeing me. We would make plans and she would drop them last minute because she’s “sick” or some other excuse. I knew I was getting played but I was too weak to end it in time. I tried to end it with her but she convinced me to keep doing what we were doing. I asked her to clarify with me what she wanted out of this “relationship”. But she wouldn’t.
She would say things to me that made me feel so special “I’ve never met anyone like you” “I feel like I could fall in love with you”. I tried to reminfld myself that she was just playing me like a fool, but I so badly wanted it to be true. That started almost a year ago, and I haven’t seen her in 8 months. I don’t know why I still think about her so much still.
I know it can’t be love, because none of it was real. We were both just pretending. Our fling has been over for twice as long as it lasted, but I still think of her.
She just messaged me a few days ago, and I replied in a way to completely dismiss her. I feel like she still wants to screw with my head out of boredom.
