I’ve been depressed and had suicidal thoughts for 3 years now but really don’t have a reason to. I have a pretty good family and i am in no way being bullied. People actually see me as a good, loyal friend, the one who will sit, listen and give you advice. I’m the one who you will go to to complain about life, to ramble to, but i don’t have that figure in my life. I have nobody to lean on. i’ve been having low self esteem. I think i’m short, fat, and ugly. I have to be there for other people but nobody will be there for me. nobody wants to listen to me so i have to listen to everybody. I have to seem happy and have a smile all the time so people can approach me with their problems, but underneath that smile is a depressed nothing.