I’m terrified of death but feel I need to kill myself. A lot of therapists and people with tell you that things get better, but I don’t want it to. I don’t think I deserve much better than this. I know my thoughts and actions and secrets and feel like nobody like me should be allowed happiness.
After I was hospitalized for a suicide attempt I felt worse. We’re slowly slipping into poverty because of the medical bills. I want more than anything to die and relieve my family of myself.