yesterday i had a relapse with my old scratching self harm. i just looked at my old scars and i hate myself so much for it, but i feel like i cant tell anyone. im honestly so disgusting and i betrayed everyone i know with my relapse. im in therapy, on antidepressants, and i still feel like garbage. i just want to be normal and not have to pray that nobody notices my scars or somehow knows that i relapsed.