I don’t know what I’m doing here but I’m gonna let this out here for today. I really can’t stop thinking about my cousin. She committed suicide a few years ago. We have the same birthday and I don’t know how long this feeling will last. I was so busy with my stupid academics that I told her, when she asked me if she could talk to me for a while, that I was too busy and I promised to talk to her later or tomorrow.. That was the first time I said that to her. I always talk to her everyday but.. I guess I .. I just chose the wrong day to close off my ears. Haha for some stupid long quiz. She died after a while.. They found her body after a few hours of being missing. I.. It’s my fault I should’ve just talked to her, I wasn’t able to talk to her and god now look. She’s gone and I can’t talk to her again, see her cosplays again. I really miss her. A life is more important than a grade..and I completely broke that moral promise I made to myself, like a stupid idiot I am.. Sorry if this was long but I don’t have anyone to talk to this about and It’s just really killing me inside. Sorry again.