regret watching p*** and m*********** and regret kissing a boy as a kid. feel suicidal when i feel ugly and see my eye scars. my eye scars bother me a lot but no one has helped me with them so far. tried to kill myself a few times but didnt work recently thought life s**** and i barely have friends so maybe i should just end it. this is my online diary for today 10th july tuesday 2018 3pm