I know I have done a lot of mean and hurtful things in my life. I acknowledge them, I don’t forget them. I feel genuine regret. I am sorry to you and you and you and you and everyone else. I am deeply sorry for the abandonment. The neglect. The mean awful things I would say to you. I am so sorry. I fucked you up and then acted like you were crazy. I was the one that caused you to be that way. There was nothing wrong with you. you deserved love just as much as everyone else. I am so sorry that I treated you like you didn’t.