TW: I’m a 15 year old transboy and selling pics of myself to people, I’m assuming most are older. I’ve gotten asked several times but I never went through with it, I said I couldn’t accept PayPal and left the chat or set my rates to high so they’d leave. It’s a criminal offense since I’m a minor and I can’t stand the thought. But if I don’t get money from this I won’t be able to afford Testosterone and I can’t live another f****** year like this being unable to transition. I haven’t sent any photos yet and I don’t want to. It feels disgusting and wrong and I hate seeing myself on the bed posing for some f****** creep. I don’t want to send them but I can’t keep refusing payments. I need the money desperately no matter how immoral it is. I’m also scared, the T I’m purchasing isn’t legally prescribed. If it’s laced or the needle is infected I have a chance of overdosing or dying but I’ve already tried to kill myself three times now I don’t see that it matters. But I don’t want to die. I have to graduate. I want to be an aerospace engineer. Space is so completely vast, my problems are nothing compared to others. I shouldn’t be confessing this. I’m sorry.