Before I met him, I lost my virginity through a terrible experience. I was like, this can’t be s**. Not torture and pain—physically and mentally. So, a couple of months after that terrible experience, I used some guy for s**. So basically, I come all over this guy at my Uni. We barely knew each other, except casually, cause college… Texted him at like 4am and we had s**. Then, I fucked him again later at another time. That was the best s** of my life. After that best f*** of my life, I did the most shittiest thing ever. I blocked him. I ghosted the f*** out of him.

That was a year ago. I haven’t seen another guy since. Still think about him sometimes.