I've got a buddy that screws me, he's the only one since high school. He's an over the road trucker, he gets back on weekends, so I'm sure he gets some

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I’ve got a buddy that screws me, he’s the only one since high school. He’s an over the road trucker, he gets back on weekends, so I’m sure he gets some tail on the side. An older black guy a few blocks over has been stopping by to now and then to visit. By some of his comments I was pretty sure what was on his mind. Last night he came over to visit, and before he left I found out the real reason he’d been comming over. It was good, to be honest he was better than my buddy, but later I was feeling guilty, and a little ashamed that I’d let it go that far.

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I don’t like how people want things done quickly. Just f-ucking let me so them when I want to do them.

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Last year I befriended a guy I met in a hospital. This was new for me but I needed help and barely felt alive. He was from the same city as I and I found him refreshing. He was weird but the boring ones are the scary ones.

After we were both were out of the hospital, within a week I got a letter in the mail. It was from him. We are both from the same city and he saw me near my house. I texted him my phone number. I figured he was safe being he was a good guy and I liked him,

He is even more unstable than I am and I am no saint but I have had past issues abusing and selling drugs and he has various disorders as well. I triggered him by trying to manipulate him and thought he would go away.

I am not proud of this and I know very well he isn’t proud of his part either, We just simply did not mesh which was both his words and I. The thing is we have a lot in common but he’s more open about his problems and I’m embarrassed of mine. That didn’t seem to matter to him and it horrified me that he wasn’t as judgmental as others. I am used to bad people into something when I was the whole time with him. He knew it but let it go. Why!???

In the end, I used and insulted him often and he knew it but helped me over and over and tried to be my friend while I pretended to attempt to be his. Many see him as crazy now being he fell apart in other ways with other people in this horrible city but we are the crazy ones for taking advantage of good people. Ashamed and disgusted with myself yet also afraid I’ll one day be as open as he was with me. What is wrong with me??