there’s so much s*** going on with me. I don’t even know how to word it. so I just brainstorm– I think am a nasty horrible, envious of others, am suicidal, am a h**** f*****, lonely, severely depressed, bipolar, desperate, hopeless, helpless, unattractive, isolated, am a hater, I never experienced true love and I never will, I hate myself for being a f*****, am broke and on top of all that I dislike my mother because I inherited these fucked up traits. sometimes I wish she was relieved of the pain by not existing. I wish I was born from different parents. LIFE IS SO INCREDIBLY PAINFUL. 🙁