I have kissed a boy as a kid who i didn’t even fancy so i don’t think it counts as a first kiss , i have watched p*** underage and i have masturbated. i have gotten naked on cam and posted n*** pictures to guys. these are the sins that make me feel like im disgusting i try not to do these things anymore but the thought that ive done it makes me feel disappointed in myself is there anyway i can get better and make better decisions in the future. I have also beaten up a kid and hurt my mother and hurt my brother the only person i haven’t hurt physically is my dad but im still ashamed about it. I have become suicidal these few weeks because i keep remembering all the things i shouldn’t have done and i get lonely and bored anyway thanks for reading this hope you can give me some advice.So what do you all think of this should i commit suicide or carry on with life.