I don’t know what to do. Our grades will be released soon. I already know that I’ve failed a course. My parents will be so disappointed. I’m scared of what they’ll do. I want to tell someone but who will listen? I wish someone could help but who will help me? My parents expect so much from me. I love them to death and work hard for them but at times I feel like their expectations are just too much. I know they only want the best for me but it finally got to me. Last week I made what seems to be the biggest mistake of my life. I skipped my Final Exam for a course. It was really just too much. I tried studying but nothing made sense. What I didn’t realise is that, that course is a prerequisite to all my final year courses. It won’t be offered next semester. I’ll have to reattempt it next year. And my university regulation states that a prerequisite waiver can only be approved if the grade in that course is D…..I have less than a D. I’m so screwed. This means I’ll be a year behind. If I keep quiet about it now, things will eventually be revealed when my parents are expecting me to graduate next year but I don’t have a graduation to attend. I wish there was someone at my university who could help me. My coursework was really good. I only had to score the minimum mark in finals to get a pass grade. Unfortunately my parents won’t understand. Nor will my lecturer, or the head of school, or the dean, or anyone. Now I’m thinking….”Should I just run away from home?” “Should I end my life right now?” I’m not looking for pity….I just had to let it out.
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Dude. I don’t know how good you are at school but I can tell your situation isn’t as bad as mine. To tell you the truth, I have failed more than 2 years now and I’m about to lose my right to stay in college if I were to fail another course. Prerequisites that connect to multiple courses are called core subject. They’re designed to fail students so those who can’t pass have to go a different way. For those who dont give up, are just stubborn, or dunno wherelse to go to, keep doing it and fail if no new methods are used. Just like Einstein said “Insanity is doing the same thing and expect different result.” I’m actually in that condition. I have been trying to break the loop but it is hard. You’ll need some external help with this. In my case, I have been seeing student counselor to help me with. The process is effective but I keep freezing whenever I feel the pressure from having more than one assignments at a time. You have to pin point the one thing that really caused you to crumble. In my case, it was anime, so I promised myself to quit it, then many things happened, I started quitting facebook and many things. It’s like a chain reaction. It is said that it takes 30 days to break a habit and 90 days to build a new one. I was successful in breaking my old habit but I failed in creating a new one because I took it a little easy after breaking the old habits. I think i’m talking too much here. Hope it helps a bit. So go talk to counselor and academic advocate. Good luck.
Another suggestion would be if you still have no choice but to start over next year anyway. Then tell your parents. Believe me, it is a lot harder to keep thinking by yourself than to tell them. They would only feel down a few minutes but everything can start fresh and that goes for you too. Don’t do stupid things like killing yourself. If you really want to atone for it, face it. You can also choose to take a breake for one year so you can understand what you want better. To learn new things. Travel or get a part time job during that period then figure out what it is you really want. It’s way better than doing stuff you don’t really like and carry the lies on your back. Don’t waste time and go talk to someone. Doesn’t matter who that is.
Thank you. It might not have been intentional on both our parts but I feel like you were that one person I needed to talk to and your advice is just what I needed. And we don’t even know each other! But with all sincerity, THANK YOU. May God bless you in all your endeavors.