I will confess that I’m scared to fall in love. My bestfriend tried to give me a hug once and I rejected it, which made him upset. Then I fell in love with him, but he wasn’t the first one because I also fell in love with my 3rd grade bestfriend and me and him don’t talk, just stare. But my other bestfriend(we’re a group) knew me and my bestfriend P liked him and we would joke non-stop over texting about the s***** favors we would give to him. Then my other bestfriend D told him because of course I couldn’t keep it a secret, so I told her and she pinkie swearednot to tell or show him the screenshots (and I always sent them to my bestfriend S). D never could keep a secret and now she goes out with him, but she had got caught at his house;her and my bestfriend P. Now she’s on punishment. She hasn’t talk to us in weeks. I send her text messages every day in the form of my “special minded” handwritten letters. Even though she hasn’t talked to Tj in a while he has talked to me. We think about each other but I get so scared to fall in love with him. I mean future vison showed me that it will happen, just how? I’m can’t even cry properly. I asked God about why I had these feelings while watching the clouds form into his message for me. Of course I’m falling for TJ and he’s falling for me. I heard him say he liked me and D but I was shocked because loved isnt something you would expect from me personality. I guess I’ll find out sooner or later. I guess I’m a bad friend when I’m falling in love with my befriend’s boyfriend too…….
