So my friends found my tumblr blog, and when i was 12-13 i was really into fontcest, and just. Really fucked up sruff. Like, s****/loli, i*****, gore, r***. Yeah it was awful and they saw some of it and i managed to delete it before they saw the worst of it. But i feel f****** sick and deeply ashamed. I managed to convince them that i wasnt like that anymore but that awful feeling is there. They say they still love me and they dont really care but i want to vomit. I feel so disgusting and ashamed. They dont….really think of me any different. It really just effected me more. I feel like i need to get my stomach pumped. It was a huge invasion of privacy. Something i wanted to take to my grave. I dont know what to do or how to get this feeling to go away. Ive never been so humiliated and horrified in my life. Haha. Im a fucked up person and i know that and i accaptrd it but i never wantrd anyone to see that side of me. I dont think theyll talk behind me back i hope. They think im not like that anymore. Whenever my friend mentioms kids i keep expecting her to be like “oh yeah eww u were pedoy as a kid lmao”. F***. Im not a p********. I was just a kid into kids my age and i didnt understand. F*** f***. I hate myself
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Pull up your socks man, Its of the past, get over yourself and carry on living.
Ohh I know how you feel, someone found my old deviant art I made when I was like 9 and I pretty much died. Laugh it off, you’re not like that anymore so why hold onto it? I use to be superrr anxious about stuff like that, but you should think of it as a funny memory.
They had no right to invade your privacy. How did they “just stumble upon” your tumblr? They owe you an apology and you have nothing to explain. It’s part of your past and you did not commit a crime. How would they feel if you started digging into their past. Please believe me that they have a past too. They reason why they’re not upset is because they know they are the ones wrong for invading your privacy. They also know that they are not perfect. Remember everyone has a past including them. But it sounds like they are not judging you or being hard on you. It sounds like you are judging yourself and being hard on yourself for no reason. You have nothing to prove to anyone.
It’s a public website. How is that a privacy issue?
Don’t let others make you forget who you are, make no effort to mold yourself for their appeal as it is weak and not worth it
Im also like shota and everything else u mentioned,but that doesn’t mean I’m actually into little kids irl or gore,rape, incest.After all its juts fiction. No one knows im into these things because im very careful.
I know the feeling. I was kicked out of the home cos my parents saw my collection of incest porn in my PC. It had pics of various family members. But mostly my mom and aunts. Just accept yourself for who you are. Now i live by myself and jerk off to family photos all the time and i love it.
Please relax when I was that age I had sex with my drunk mother when she was passed out cold. That was the first time I ever had sex
That’s rape.