I feel absolutely useless right now. I have things I’m supposed to be doing but I can’t do them. I’m not smart. I’m not pretty. The only thing I’m good at is drawing but I don’t even have the motivation to do that. Someone paid me $40 to draw them something and I haven’t gotten it done yet and I don’t feel like I’ll do a good job but I can’t refund money I already spent. Why do I have to be like this. Instead of doing important things I’m downloading a visual novel maker to make some stupid thing out of pure jealousy and my gut is wrenching from the jealousy. I haven’t left my bed all day. I’m so useless god what do I do to get motivated? I want him to be proud of me but I can’t even be proud of myself what’s the point in trying