I have struggled with s** addiction for many years, and about 2 years ago I got involved in a very healthy romantic relationship. Every now and then my s** addiction comes up, like when she goes out of town I’ll look at p*** and have p********. Other than that all I do is rarely sneak peaks at p***/instagram and it doesn’t go any further than than. A few weeks ago though, I had this crazy notion that I needed a back massage, and after trying to get in at a couple of sports massage clinics, I eventually ended up at a drop-in Asian massage parlor. I wasn’t expecting a happy ending, but it just happened. I don’t want to tell her about it as it just happened this once, but it is haunting me a little bit. I have a therapist that just I see, and I’m considering talking to the therapist about it, but am still terrified. I really don’t want to ruin the trust I have with my partner, and feel that if I don’t do it again that I’ll be fine with that. I’m also in a recovery program and one of the guidelines is that when you do something wrong, you makes amends, unless it will injure them. So according to that I am okay not telling my girlfriend about, but still feel the need to confess it nonetheless. I’m also wondering what others might think about this so I’m sharing my confession anonymously.
