I’ve slowly been getting more unwell in the past few months. I’ve not yet went to see my doctor because I hope whatever it is will be something that (if left untreated) will be enough to kill me.
I’m so tired of being alive but I’m too much of a coward to initiate an exit. I don’t want my loved ones to blame themselves or think they had anything to do with why I want to die, nor would I want to ruin the life of a driver or train operator, so I hope they’ll be able to blame some disease or cancer instead.
