I pretend to be someone I’m not, it’s really easy. I just pick a persona or person I want to become, example “Nice” “sweet” “kind” “Happy” so I’ll act that way, sound, clothes, voice, energy. Everything about me changes. And I become a new person.
It’s because I really don’t feel anything but sadness. And I don’t really know myself anymore. And if I was my true self, people would judge me. So why not play the role of someone else who is better than you?
I even lie saying “Oh yeah I’ve played that game” “YEAH! I love that movie” just to get closer to a person.
And yes sometimes I will admit “Nooo? What’s that” But I usually say I know it, and then at night study the entire thing, watch playthroughs. Watch the movies online, see scenes. Mark dialoges and plots to say what I thought of them.
I don’t do it just for my lack of personality though, I do it because I want love, and friends.
I just feel sad now though. Angry and sad.