I was a toxic partner to my ex, we were great when we were together but I couldn’t handle the slightest bit of jealously and thought of losing her, idk even why I’m typing here, maybe to get all the guilt of holding her back off my chest.. I have grown up moved on and learnt from my mistakes, dabbling in dating and am now in a new relationship which is completely different, I have none of the same feelings as I used to. But laying up late tonight because of my insomnia I thought I’d look through the last texts between me and my ex, no idea why I just got there. Reading through everything made me feel horrible, I read most of the final 2 months and aftermath of the ending of the relationship. I was toxic, nasty, jealous and I hate myself for it, she had done nothing to deserve it, I would ask her where she going, what’s happening, who’s there 24/7, she missed out on parties, gatherings and friends because of me and a whole lot of other s***. I just don’t understand and I feel horrible, I want to pop up to her and tell her how sorry I am for basically f****** 9 months of her life up and holding here back by being a toxic c***. Were not on speaking terms and anyway the new missus probably wouldn’t be too pleased anyway. If you read this, you know who it is and know it’s about you, know I’m sorry, I never meant to be like that, taking the time to change and realise and reflect has made me realise just how toxic I was, you’re a great person and deserve the best I wish you all the happiness and everything in life, sorry.