I fell in love with my best friends sister. That was 3 years ago. I am celebrating my 20th anniversary to the only woman that I have ever known – mentally/spiritually/physically/s*******.

It was amazing that as a 42 year old – when the affair started that other women were attracted to me. She is a red head, slim and very animated, attractive and very s***. She is also divorced. I began to suspect that she was attracted to me and I expressed an interest in her.

The really big problem is that I am a deacon of the church and we all attend the same church and are active in the congregation. That would be me, my best friend and Red. My wife is not so active and does not take part in what is and has been a great part of my life.

Red and I got close during a church production. I noticed that she was in my Sunday School classes and attended the softball games. She was always around. She would be close, we would hug and yes eventually I did kiss her much to her surprise and extreme delight.

That kiss started a 3 year affair. We spent stolen time together, many intimate sessions and we fell in love with each other. red is a different woman she has kept allot of this to her self and does not wear her emotions and feelings on her sleeve.

During this time it has been life as normal at home and church and work. No one knows or suspects. Both of our lives are involved with the church and we have not spoken to anyone about our feelings to for each other or how we desire and long to be with each other.

And yes we did have s** ONCE, last year in November. My wife was out of town and Red and I spent the day together. It was an amazing event.

Because we do hit it off very well and probably would have been a great all around couple we do restrain ourselves when we see each other. We are realizing that we were wrong and we have become very close and intimate friends – which it started out to be in the beginning.

Because of our positions and life and families and our closeness and her brother being my best friend I have not been able to share this with anybody. I accidentally ran across this website and thought it would be good for the soul to confess and get it out.

I do not care what others think. God will be my final judge and I need to make sure that I am right with Him before I shuffle off the mortal coil. We all fail and make poor choices.

I have to say that because of my love for her and her’s for me if the opportunity presented itself again we would take it. But we have realized that and have had restraint for the last year. I have no regrets she is a beautiful and passionate and lovely woman.