Just gave up two years and four months sober. New job is outrageously stressful and both parents are now stroke victims that need me to find them an assisted living situation. Don’t think I’ll pull myself back up from this one. Funny thing about addiction, I’m more comfortable being garbage than anything else, it’s hard to regret this. Not sure if I should just quit work and go under or lead them on while I tank. I know that nobody understands what it’s like if they don’t also suffer, so I’m just going to hold on for the short time my parents still live, then I’m going out with all my finances set to cover the expense I’ll leave behind.
