i blame most people for my problems but really all most everytime no ones to blame but me. iv realized this recently which is pretty sad to say the least. the thing id iv mostly blamed people becuase of arguments i had. most of them i was trying to defend someone but everytime i just took it way to far. i didnt realize it before but when this happens i become the bully. im just trying to make the other person sorry. but no i just become the one on the other side. its not like im mean to. i have good intentions. and sometimes its completely my fault that we were fighting. i feel so bad that its taken this long for me to realize this. i just cant believe iv been so blind to this. its my own fault that im the way i am. this just makes me so sad for me and everyone iv ever blamed. i cant believe myself… i still just cant believe it.
