my crush is like this super unreachable guy. We’re kinda friends but he deliberately tries to avoid girls because he doesn’t want a relationship after his last girlfriend. Their relationship, or rather what came after it, really hurt him. So he hangs out with a ton of guys instead, and i don’t know if i should be flattered that he considers me a friend because that means I’m of enough importance to be a friend, or to be hurt because he doesn’t think of me as a girl or someone he’d risk a relationship with. It’s selfish of me to want more of him, but I do. anyway, he’s not only untouchable because of that, but he’s incredible. He got the highest SAT score in my school, he has his own online store that actually does quite well, and he’s insanely handsome. Like god level. He’s funny and kind and likes to read(even the same kind of books I like!), he loves dogs and has ambition. Not to mention the distance between our homes and the difference in our families economic status. There’s probably other girls on his tail too, and I don’t want him to see me like one of those suitors. I want to be his friend, but closer. I want to be there when he cries and needs someone to hold him and I want to be there to make him laugh and smile, and tell him he looks handsome and that he doesn’t need a hat to cover up his face. I don’t think I’m the best for him, and I’m not self prevaricating, I know I’m smart and at least a little pretty, but it’s not enough. Ahhhh, he’s like an angel