I’m a 38 year-old wife and mother of two. My husband is great, mostly, takes good care of the kids and me. S*******, though, he’s very vanilla and he just doesn’t meet my needs. For a few months now I’ve been meeting a guy I met online. The affair is not at all emotion, it’s purely s*****. In fact, it’s a very intense, dirty, and “degrading” situation. I don’t mean that it’s literally degrading, I mean that it’s a kind of experience I crave that I don’t get at home. There’s a lot of oral, a*** s**, r******, and general rough s**. I work from home so I have the freedom to go to his apartment about once per week. He’s five years younger than me. I feel guilty about this but I know my husband would never be willing to give me this sort of s**. On a few occasions we’ve even brought in another guy and made it a t********. I felt horrible and dirty afterward yet it was one of the hottest things I’ve ever experienced.