I’ve spent all of my life shutting people out and not dare let anyone in because that’s what I was taught. My father always told me that if you let somebody in they will use it against you and hurt you. I have recently met someone and even though I have only known her for about two months, I feel like I can trust her. I don’t know what it is about her but its like I’ve known her all of my life. I kept shutting her out and was a b**** to her but yet she seemed to and still does always come back. I actually have made her cry a few times and for once in my life I actually feel guilty for doing what I’ve always done. I have recently grown closer to her and now, not that I would EVER admit it, I am slowly becoming addicted to her. She is worse than any other drug you can think of. All it takes is one look at her and my heart starts rapidly beating and my breathing becomes faster and I just can’t get enough of that feeling. I know that it’s wrong and I shouldn’t even be thinking about letting her in because like my father taught me, being close to someone makes you weak and they will eventually use that against you and knock you down. Then there is the other part of me, wanting to let her in, I mean hell she deserves something for always coming back, even when I had hurt her. Nobody else has ever fought for me like she has and a part of me wants to believe that she is different and the other part wants to stop while I can. The thing that scares me even more is the fact that not only are we both the same gender but nobody else has ever made me feel this way and I think that I might be falling for her…. hard.