I can quit smoking. I started when I was just 15 and now I’m 37. I can’t explain to my 3 year old daughter why I smoke and I’m terrified I won’t live to see her graduate.

It’s literally killing me that I can’t quit. I can barely go 20 minutes without needing another cigarette. My chest and lungs hurt and I can’t climb up a flight of stairs without gasping and wheezing. It’s gotten a lot worse in the past four years, and my doctor says I already have early onset emphysema. I also have terrible dental problems, so many teeth getting pulled, and I constantly smell like an ashtray. All the other moms look at me like a social outcast when I smoke a cigarette on the playground watching my daughter play. It never felt like this before.

I don’t know how to quit.