I f****** hate myself. I hate myself so much. I’m such a p************. My ex-girlfriend, she was raped by her step father, who still remains in the house with her. She’s gotten to the point of just slamming her head against the wall until she’s unconscious. I helped her through that extremely tough spot and she asked me out. I said yes, regrettably. And it didn’t turn out well, we broke up. And she’s been texting me and calling me asking to get back together even though it was pure toxicity being in that relationship. So, I texted her back. And I feel nothing when doing so. My words feel meaningless, because they are. I don’t feel anything towards her or anything anymore and I keep lying and saying that I want to get back together but I don’t think its a good idea so I won’t to spare her feelings and me the trouble of having to explain how much of an emotionless p************ I am.
