I feel guilty because I to go find a new daddy because I need someone who can be more consistent in giving me attention.

I know he’s busy with moving, work, aa meeting, therapy, and drama with a few different friends. I’ve told him just a quick check in everyday or two would make me feel good. But he spends so much time not with his phone because he doesn’t want to be around drama and it makes me sad.

I just want to hear his voice. Im on my period and I really want the comfort of his voice and hearing him tell me to cut for him.

I feel so guilty because we’ve never talked fully if we were a legitimate thing or something else. He’s a friend first, and I don’t want him to be mad or hurt if I ask him if we could stop the ddlg part of relationship because I want someone more consistent.

But then I’d feel guilty because he might think I’m leaving him because he has problems. Which is not the case because I have so much f****** wrong with me that I would feel even more guilty because I don’t want to bring things up because I want him to know about it, but he already worried about things I have brought up.