I’m in a relationship with my boyfriend and have been for almost a year and a half. We’ve both said we love each other and I truly do love him and care about him, but I know he loves me far more than I do him. He says he thinks he’s found his soulmate in me but I don’t feel that way about him. I keep telling myself that once we both figure out our mental illnesses (anxiety and depression for both of us) that I’ll feel more like he’s my partner in crime and part of my team rather than a person to cuddle with and argue with. I’m always so happy to see him, but since I’ve known him I’ve cried so much more than I used to because we’d fight about the smallest things. I’ve already tried breaking up with him once but we got back together and I feel trapped because I truly love him but I’m scared that he’s not the one for me long-term. I always imagined myself with a girl who was optimistic and could connect with me on an emotional level. I imagine my home with my partner to be full of laughter and optimism and I just don’t see how my boyfriend could change if at all. I feel like I’m leading him on because I don’t feel like we’ll be long-term, but I know if I try and break up with him again that will be it and I’m scared that all these feelings that we’re not compatible is just my anxiety running wild and what if we are good together. But in the meantime, he is absolutely head over heels in love with me and I just love him as in I care for him. I wish so badly that I could feel what he feels for me, for him. I can’t though and I don’t know what to do…