I have a fear that I will never be loved by a woman. And oddly I'm OK with that. Because I think I deserve it. My mom died of cancer on October 17, 2015

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I have a fear that I will never be loved by a woman. And oddly I’m OK with that. Because I think I deserve it. My mom died of cancer on October 17, 2015 and during that time I had a long distance relationship. She ended up cheating on me even while my mom was alive and after she passed away. Every woman I come into contact with, my mind tells me that I’m useless and that I shouldn’t even bother talking to women. Because I failed as a son and as a boyfriend. It’s a constant battle. Somedays I’m motivated other days I’m so down. Help

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