Last night I had s** with a married man. I knew he was married because my friend I was out with is friends with him and his wife.

He caught my eye in the club and came up to me and said I’ll see you in the dance floor.. 3 hours later he came back to my house with me and my friends..

So we were just chilling at first and everyone was going to sleep. So we just laid on my bed for like 20 minutes and then we started kissing and touching. I’m not really sure exactly how it started. Like was it more me or more him or just a join effort. We was still kind of chilling had clothes on ect.

Then I was straddeling him (still with clothes on well kickers and a silky dressing gown) then my friend who knows him and his wife walks upstairs and sees us but immediately walks straight downstairs.

I think he was in a panic and so was I. He said who was that so i say *name* and he’s like oh f*** she won’t say anything will she. I mean we wants having s** but obviously it’s still wrong to do that.

All that really happened in the end was a kissing groping b**** d*** sucking and he was inside me for like 30 seconds. Obviously we didn’t finish anything I think it was just arkward and we felt guilty but at the same time really fancied each other and wanted it.

My friend then called him a cab to take him home to his wife and she shares the cab and went back to hers.

To all day today -day after I have felt so guilty and I just want to know what he’s thinking. Like I know my friend won’t tell his wife because her loyalty lays with him not her and with me. I kind of want to say to him like just don’t worry it was a mistake and we knew it was wrong but it was right in the moment for a moment.

I know he’s not happily married and there relationship has been in termoil recently. was I more me was it more him is he going to hate me for it. He shouldn’t have been in my bad if he didn’t want it. So many things going though my head!!