I could have told you to stop. I could have said “don’t do this to yourself.” But I never did. I never stopped you from hurting yourself so much, and I let you drive yourself down this hole and into nothingness. I’m sorry, love. I should have stopped you. You were my best friend, but I think you know that I didn’t stop you because I was jealous, angry at the life that could have been mine. I was stupid. My only wish is that you’ll forgive me.