I have a crush on a guy at my gym. I've been calling him "hot tormund" in my mind because he has a nice ginger beard. I noticed him a few weeks ago and I

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I have a crush on a guy at my gym. I’ve been calling him “hot tormund” in my mind because he has a nice ginger beard. I noticed him a few weeks ago and I know now that he works out about the same time most nights. I must admit to scheduling my workouts to when I suspect he’ll be there. So now I’m slightly stalking the poor man. The other night it came time for my stretch and he was on the tricep machine right in front of the stretch mats, so I picked a spot directly in his line of sight to do my stretches. Then, I was lucky enough yesterday that he was on the treadmill and it happened that there weren’t many options so I chose one to his right with one person between us – I actually had to resist blatantly taking the machine right next to him. He must have started to notice me looking at him, because when the guy between us left shortly thereafter, he turned his head my way, so I looked over and he shot me this intense piercing stare for a few seconds, with a smirk that … just said it all really. He’s on to me. I’m afraid I’ve crossed the line, because I’M MARRIED. I don’t want to cheat, but I haven’t been satisfied lately and hot tormund just looks so damn tempting to me! And now I’m convinced he knows I have a crush on him! I think I ought to go to the other location, but I can’t resist going to check him out! I feel bad mostly, but I’m becoming addicted to the thrill of seeing him and fantasizing about him later. I know I’m wrong for this, but I am wondering if he’ll make the initiative to talk to me soon.

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