My first s** was with my 4yr older sister. I can’t say she groomed me, one night when I was about 8 she started being s***** with me, I suppose she was going through puberty and I was the only one available.
She would s*** me some but would only let me penetrate her b***. I got it in the front door occasionally for a stroke or 2 but that was off limits. She freely let me in her b***. It was her preferred bc method.
I remember once when our parents were in the room, she whispered to me that “your nutt is coming out my b***”, and me chuckling and her saying it isn’t funny. Mom heard us and asked what we were talking about and of course we said nothing lol. I don’t know why that moment stands out in my mind.
I suppose because I was small when we started, she never once acted like I was hurting her, when I got older she would say I needed lube but still she didn’t act like I was hurting her, I would gradually work it in and we would do it, I thought pain free a*** s** was normal, boy was I wrong.
Officially my sister “molested” me but, she was 12 a kid herself I don’t hold anything against her. I know my sister loved my I have never doubted it, if she thought for one second that what she was doing could harm me I have no doubt that she wouldn’t have done it but by the time she was old enough to process that it was done.
There was one point where she hinted around but never came out and asked me if I held it against her. I told her I blame her for my a*** addiction and we both laughed with her saying her husband didn’t seem interested at least not with her, none of it was ever brought up again.