i had a thing with a boy, we went on one date but then i left for a month, having no way to communicate and when i came back, i faced the difficult truth that i didn’t feel the same way anymore and during our time while talking and even before, i feared that intimacy, that close connection with him, but i was scared of the idea all around. i have a problem with emotional and physical intimacy, and i knew that but was told by friends that it was just my nerves because i’d never gotten this far with a boy but i’m scared that i will never to get to be in a relationship, experience this love that i see daily because i can’t and won’t be able to reciprocate a love for someone because i’m too nervous or scared to get that far with someone, even if i feel feelings and emotions for them.
