The first time She was lying naked and practically glowing before me. She was so pale she was like the moon in the dark. I spread her legs and started to enter her. She closed her eyes tight, like she was hurting. I immediately asked her if she was ok. She looked confused like no one had ever asked her that before. I realized she saw it as something I was doing to her to make myself feel pleasure. It was a sacrifice she was making. I never wanted that. I wanted to make her feel good. I wanted to make her feel loved. It wasn’t about my pleasure. I felt so bad that I stopped. She has been through so much I don’t know how to convince her that she can have a good time too.