New Year’s Eve my parents had gone to one of my aunt and uncles for the evening. After they were gone one of my cousins showed up. He’s 19 and in college

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New Year’s Eve my parents had gone to one of my aunt and uncles for the evening. After they were gone one of my cousins showed up. He’s 19 and in college and I just turned 14. We watched TV for a while then he noticed my dad’s liquor cabinet and wanted to know if we could celebrate New Year’s. I told him why not even though I’d never drank. It was still early so we drank a some and we got kinda silly. He asked if we had any playing cards so I got them. He taught me how to play a poker game which was fun. The drinking had gotten me pretty drunk so when he joked we should play strip poker I went along. After about a half hour we were both getting down to pretty much nothing with me only my bra and p****** and him his underwear and tee shirt. I was so drunk that when he ask if I wanted to stop I said not now. He won the next time so off came my bra. Then I won so he said I could choose what he had to take off. I didn’t think he would do it so I said your underwear. He immediately took them off embarrassing me because it was standing straight out. He immediately took me by the hand pulling me toward the sofa. We were standing up then he started playing with my tiny b****. I had never done anything but kiss a couple of guys so I got excited. Then he pushed me down on the sofa. I could feel his thing against my p****** as he was kissing me still playing with my b****. He took his other hand slide my p****** to the side then I felt his fingers feeling for my thing. It surprised me when he found it that instead of his finger he started his thing in me. I told him he shouldn’t be doing that but I was so drunk I just enjoyed letting him doing it to me. He kept telling me how good it was embarrassing me more but also getting me more excited. When he said for me to get ready I didn’t know what he meant but I got a warm feeling inside me at the same time my body shook and all I could do was hold onto him until it stopped. When he wanted to know if I always did that I told him I wouldn’t know because it was the first time I had had s**. He said he was surprised because I had known exactly what to do. He told me to go clean up so it was obvious what had made me get that feeling. He stayed until the New Year then left. I quickly put things up so my parents wouldn’t know we drank then went to bed before they got home. I was suppose to get my period around the 11th or 12th but it hasn’t come and it’s now the 20th so I’m scared that he might have gotten me pregnant. I don’t know how to get in touch with him at college but need to as soon as I can. I can’t ask his parents because they will want to know why I need to talk to him.

New Confession

Before time began,
there was the Cube.
We know not where it comes from, only that it holds the power to create worlds and fill them with life. That is how our masterrace was born.
For a time,
we lived in harmony.
But like all great power,
some wanted it for good,
others for evil.
And so began the war.
A war that ravaged our planet until it was consumed by death,
and the Cube was lost to the far reaches of space.
We scattered across the galaxy, hoping to find it and rebuild our home.
Searching every star,
every world.
And just when all hope seemed lost, message of a new discovery drew us to an unknown planet called… Earth.
the All Spark fells to Earth
But we were already too late

Optimus Primer

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Some of this i learned and processed years after when my mother told me. Even when i was an infant if i was crying or fussy she would fondle my g e n i t a l s to soothe me and take me to breast. Apparently even when she was trying to toilet train as a first reward system she would do it as a reward. When i was no longer bedwetting she had me sleep in her bed. She continued to brrastfeed me for many years, long past puberty. She did so to make me obedient whether it was good grades or chores or general behavior. When school first started it was neurotic so she escalated it. At some point that i remember from around 7 or 8 she would use her mouth as a special treat. She also said she did it because boys are dirty and bad. She said she did it to keep me from shaming or degrading myself. When hair began to grow on my body she kept me shaved because she said ikept me her cute little boy. She did not tell me this until i dreamt it but apparently overnight she would commonly at same general age have me lay on top of her and rub my p e n i s against her between her legs. These things happened commonly until the first time i e j a c ulated when she had her mouth on me. From that event on she would have me enter her and climax every morning and every night at bedtime. To her it was keeping me good and focused and making good grades all the way through college (local, lived with her). It continued until her age made it too difficult to do safely and she eventually had of her in home caretakers serve as her surrogate for higher pay. I still see that caretaker since my mother died and i continue to oay her to visit her several times a week. I have never dated or been with any other women. Mother got me addicted to infantile headspace s** for control and i have no ability to be attracted to or date or have relationship,s** because i am helplessly trapped in that whole messed up mommy mentality.