I’ve been married for six years and about three months ago started an affair with an older man (23 years my senior) who I’ve known and had strong feelings for for about 18 months. I will always love my husband but feel like I’ve stopped growing as a person with him. The new man motivates me and teaches me to look at things in a deeper way. He has taught me so much about understanding other people and myself, and honestly I can’t believe he loves me. He is a person I want to aspire to be – proactive, helps others and constantly working to better himself. I don’t get that with my husband and I need to end this marriage rather than living a lie. But I can’t hurt him and it will feel so out of the blue to him. The other man hasn’t pressured me to leave my marriage but makes comments more and more and has told me he’s fallen in love with me. We spend every second we can together not just having s** but doing things together, visiting new places, talking and even domestic things like cooking together which we both enjoy because it gives us a glimpse of what our relationship could be like. I’m in so much turmoil but it wouldn’t compare to what my husband would feel like if he knew.
