My therapist has said that she is fine/not a problem in the world for me to come to one of my appointments cross dressed. Simply so I can feel more comfortably and naturally myself. Since it has always been about my gender identity, not anything to do with s********, I am looking forward to it very much for all the right reasons. She has been exposed to the inner feminine me, but said she would like to see/talk to me in that mode because she feels that the need to smother/hide it from the entire world makes me instinctively keep a wall up to some degree with her anyway. I am genuinely thrilled that I was able to ask her if it were permissible for me to come to an appointment dressed, and I was so happy she reacted so encouragingly about it. This will be the first time I have ever been seen dressed as a woman by anyone, ever, it has simply been something I allowed myself to express when home alone. As thrilled as I am to have the safe nurturing opportunity to be fully myself loke this, I am also very nervous about it. Not because someone/she will see me dressedas my true self, but because she is a very classy, well dressed woman. And I am actually worrying about whether she will be judgemental about my choice of wardrobe/style.
