At 13 I realized that I had a little p**** and I was fat and ugly no girls liked me and I was jealous of the boys I know now it wrong but one day my 4 yo cousin and I were playing I was tickling him and he grabbed hold of my hand and put it on his privates without thinking about it I started rubbing him he was loving it so I got a little braver and stuck my hand inside his shorts he was laughing and smiling I played with him a few minutes and we kinda just forgot about it until I was babysitting him about a week later this time we were watching TV when he grabbed my hand and put it between his legs I told him we would get in alot of trouble if we get caught he almost cried and said please I won’t tell anyone my little d*** was throbbing so I told him to go to my room and pull down his shorts and get on my bed and he did grinning ear to ear. His pp was hard but only about a inch long I had watched my older brother p*** tapes before I knew kinda what to do so I started sucking it he just lay back and put his hands on my head loving it. I started babysitting him as much as I could. Next time I started by sucking his toes then rimmed him good once I had him spit in my mouth while I was jacking off. I would sometimes watch him in the morning before he woke up I would cuddle up with him he often wet the bed and I would clean him with a washrag then one morning I just pulled down his underwear and licked him clean it wasn’t bad just a little bit salty. Lol I was a nasty kid! He never wanted to do anything to me besides playing with my d*** and balls so I didn’t make him. I started feeling bad about it and stopped after a few months he wanted me to do it all the time i know that it was wrong now but we have never talked about it since and we are still good friends and I love him.