I’m bisexual/pansexual and I recently began dating a boy a year older than me. I went to a friends birthday party– held at a large, lavish place with a courtyard and everything– and my boyfriend wasn’t invited. There was a girl there, in my boyfriend’s classes, and I stuck around her for most of the night. We danced together a bit, and when I invited her outside, around 8:45 or 9, we sat in the empty courtyard and kissed. I’d never been kissed by anyone before, not even my boyfriend, and I feel awful for going behind his back, but kissing her just felt so right.
It was a first experience– and guilt.