I know this isn’t r*** bc it was only a b****** and I technically didn’t say no and he didn’t force me? But I’m 16 and he’s an English teacher. And he knows I have depression and that I cut and that I’m just not at a great place mentally. The other day I was kind of at the point of a breakdown and he knew that and asked if I would give him a b******. And said he’d give me a fifty and two packs of cigarettes and a drive. I told him again that I was gonna breakdown. But he was like yeah this is a good time bc ur vulnerable. Basically I ended up doing it bc I thought it wasn’t a bad idea and I really needed some cigarettes anyway. They help me with anxiety. It was my first b******* ever and idk if I regret it or not. Just really confused and kinda sad. I brush my teeth like six times a day now.
