My boyfriend makes me tell him all the details of me being raped. When we have s** he insists I tell him what it felt like, how hard the guy was, how many times he thrust in me, what his c** tasted like when he make me lick his shaft clean.

My boyfriend gets harder and harder with each thing I say. He rams it in me really hard and calls me ‘b****’ just like the r***** did. He makes me clean up his shaft by licking it clean just like the r***** did. I love my boyfriend and I’m glad he stayed with me after I was raped and I want him to be happy. Having s** with him is difficult because it’s just like being raped again and again. It makes him hard and happy but it’s the same old thing for me and it’s boring.

I know what he is going to want to hear again tonight. I know he’ll get rock hard and he’ll have a super o*****. He’ll be very satisfied but it does nothing for me but bring back the pain. I wish he understood. I don’t know why he is fixated on my r***. He needs to move on. He needs to get hard and have satisfaction another way.